Reflection April 10
Your steadfast love, O Lord, extends to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the clouds.
Your righteousness is like the mountains of God;
your judgments are like the great deep;
man and beast you save, O Lord.
How precious is your steadfast love, O God!
The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings.
They feast on the abundance of your house,
and you give them drink from the river of your delights.
For with you is the fountain of life;
in your light do we see light.
As someone who has struggled with depression through the years, I am aware of the cautionary signs of slipping into seasons and/or moments of darkness. Depression can feel like a heavy shroud on our shoulders, and sometimes there are moments it feels like the world is covered with a blanket of darkness.
But I have learned, it is during these occasions that the Lord sweeps me in close and lets me take refuge in the shadow of His wing. He knows these dark moments well, isn’t surprised by them, and is so careful with me during these times. I have consciously chosen to trust the Lord in these seasons and have been amazed by how brightly He can shine His light through the darkness. You see, what often FEELS like darkness, isn’t always true darkness. We just lose sight of the light: Jesus. It is comforting to know that God truly IS light and that the feelings of darkness are not from Him. “God is light, and in him is no darkness at all” (1 John 1:5). I take refuge in knowing that even the Lord is master of all darkness and all feelings of darkness.
I’ve always loved the song “You are the Sun” by Sara Groves, but it’s the chorus that gets me. It reminds us that we can’t be a light to others unless we turn our eyes to the Lord.
You are the sun shining down on everyone
Light of the world giving light to everything I see
Beauty so brilliant I can hardly take it in
And everywhere you are is warmth and light
And I am the moon with no light of my own
Still you have made me to shine
And as I glow in this cold dark night
I know I can't be a light unless I turn my face to you
As we continue on this Lenten journey, it can be so easy to fall into patterns of darkness. In fact, it is hard to watch the news or read a newspaper without feeling the weight of heaviness in the world. We have to make the decision DAILY to live in the Light and not succumb to worry and fear about all that is happening around us. We have to trust that God is sovereign and righteous. We have to choose daily to turn our face to the Lord, because it is only through His light that we experience Light.