Reflection April 9
In you, O Lord, do I take refuge;
let me never be put to shame!
In your righteousness deliver me and rescue me;
incline your ear to me, and save me!
Be to me a rock of refuge,
to which I may continually come;
you have given the command to save me,
for you are my rock and my fortress.
Rescue me, O my God, from the hand of the wicked,
from the grasp of the unjust and cruel man.
For you, O Lord, are my hope,
my trust, O Lord, from my youth.
David spoke his requests confidently to the Lord. It is thought that David penned this Psalm at the time of Absalom's rebellion or at least within the context of some trouble associated with the foretelling that the sword should not depart from his house. David made some huge mistakes that brought him much suffering; suffering that would not depart. Yet David is not full of shame or guilt in his old age. He is confident that God is merciful and kind, that he is safe, trustworthy, and ready to deliver him.
Becoming a parent has been such a grace in my life for it has brought me death - death to the pride of my youth. My sins are great, but his steadfastness is greater. He is beside me and beside all his children. He is patient and kind, not only ready to deliver us but if we are willing he will take our hand and lead us out of our sin and into his righteousness. The death is necessary. I'm learning to even welcome it; remembering that I can let go and trust my maker and my sustainer to bring true life.
May we move humbly and confidently into death remembering, as David did, that God is our help, that the consuming fire is there in the darkness. He is our hope and confidence!